The present moment

December 31st, Saturday, 2006

We are taking forever.

"Before. That was a memory, all memories being a linguistically-fuelled device used to (that we use to) refashion the present."
"Our present."
"Ours, yes. We make a before to buffer an awareness of a 'now' and to give ourselves space to breathe an 'us'"
"Oh
they did say "oh"
" community."

Quite prayerful. Amused, uncomprehending, scornful and bargaining. As I beseach you....I wish they had said " beseach you" but they didn't. Perhaps it will come to pass in future memory this phrase, with this invocation.
When we come together, it has the strands of the moment's impulses, the ways we accommodate each other, a historicism that we both seek out; and so it feels like we invoke a drawing out of something that is both independant and fundamental. We do do that, and the effect of so doing is felt by me.

"Community."