3 minutes tops

i do not think i want you there
i do not think i even care
you do not want to even think
you were not absolutely right

you cannot even let it go
you will not let yourself believe
i so easily rethink and
you hold on to things and
sink

i think you think that 'or' is god
and that once that you have 2
then your certainty is 'true'
and your conviction is complete

i do not mind one little bit
that you like this little grid
you pay no mind to
any undefined
externals;
your world complete, dysfunctional, internal

your utmost, idiosyncratic skill
by which you fashion
your thinking cell
i like
it makes me smile
as you do
for a little while
and now and then
as i remember
remember - sometimes is just 'forever' , differently

and when you reach out to invite me
concentrating on the footholds
i take care because i'm me
and when i reach out and hold you
i see you through the keyhole
and my screaming is our heartbeat
no mxxg box you tell me is infinity